第166号

我根本不是在做梦

只是太渴望处于梦里

一直认为自己在发梦

一直劝自己醒过来

这才发现我是清醒的

醒得久，醒得厌，醒得苦。

第165号

又过了一年。

又要过一年。

转眼十二年已逝。

在下来的十二年会如何？

人总是过一年算一年。有谁会回头看看走过的路？

回头了就能看到走过的痕迹吗？

怕是回头了，却不知自己在看什么，在找什么。

第164号

一分醉，九分醒。

二分醉，一份疯，七分醒。

三分醉，三分疯，四分醒。

四分醉，四分疯，二分醒。

四分醉，六分疯。

短暂地过了似梦非梦的夜。

第163号

此时可能有个婴儿出世，下一刻却可能有人逝世。

有人会因为诞生而喜悦，有人会因为离别而悲泣。

人。生。

真无常。

第162号

“it can be worse

so cannot be too greedy

if u think it is the worst

then juz endure a bit

it can only get better”

第161号

“spectator of life“

没有比这三个字更恰当了。

现在像是旋在半空中，不上不下。

动力不足，无法向上。

害怕太多，无法往下。

以前总是说自己迷失了方向，但至少还能浑浑噩噩过上几个星期，几个月再来整理情绪。

现在好像不立刻醒过来就会被黑洞吸得连一丝存在过得痕迹也会消失。

坐观奇变显然不是这个时候该做的事。

我该如何醒过来？

第160号

我从一个似梦非梦的旅程回来了。

这次的旅行感触并不多，但也不见得没什么领悟。

我像是对自己多了些了解，提醒了自己一些遗忘的事物。

奶茶的《我的不完美》写说：”善待自己就是放过自己， 放过自己就是把标准放低，把他人的指指点点视为无物。”

一切按部就班吧。。。

第159号

i don’t know how effective writing on a blog helps to soothe the soul, soothe my soul. but i feel inspired after reading a friend’s post.

it’s a scary world out there.

and i don’t think i feel safe at home either.

one moment you thought you had it, but it’s really not going to be yours and the next thing you know, your world came crashing down on you.

but as humans, the supposedly strongest life-form in this world (with the exception of cockroaches), we have to fight.

we have to get on our feet and fight.

fight against, fight with, fight back.

but it’s so tiring and i am in no mood to fight.

so i am just being crashed down by the debris from this flawed world.

but i am (still) hopeful.

that before i burn, i will have the power to fight my way through to the light.

 

第158号

Such great heights
Artist(Band):Iron & Wine

I am thinking it’s a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They’re perfectly aligned

And I have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true it may seem like a stretch
But it’s thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you’re away
When I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they’ll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we’ll stay

I’ve tried my best to leave
This all on your machine
But the persistent beat
It sounded thin upon listening

And that frankly will not fly
You’ll hear the shrillest highs
And lowest lows with the windows down
When this is guiding you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they’ll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we’ll stay

第157号

二零一一年     六月九日

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

还有四十五分钟

两千七百秒的车程

身边坐着的摄影师就像是要去闯下一个景点，拍摄更多的回忆

我却有一种终于又回到家的感觉

只是这里不是我家

至少在现实里它不是我家

是该从这似梦非梦的旅程醒来的时候了

只要醒来后现实不太刺眼

只要醒来后还能在做一次梦。